Dear 2020-

Who? What? Where? When? Why? And How?

This year has raised a lot of questions – for the world and for me. I quickly cycled through many of these “W” questions this year but find myself spending a considerable amount of time this year on the “how.”

How do I show up every day and get through it?
How do I keep in touch with friends and family despite having little energy to give?
How did I get dealt such good cards in life when many others didn’t?
How do my actions affect others?
How can I contribute to the world today and going forward in a meaningful way?
How do I want to spend my time in 2021 and after?
How do I love more and judge less?
How did we end up here?

Some of these questions have simple answers that I may have had a rudimentary grasp on in third grade but have come back around and given me reason to spend more time on them. Some of these are lofty questions that at times this year have suffocated me. And some of these questions may not have any clear answer at all.

I don’t have much else to say about 2020 yet. I think it’s difficult to fully understand something you’re going through at the time it’s happening. For now, I’m just focused on how I show up for myself and my loved ones every day.

Syd